Loss

Well, it is 12:40am and I am still awake. I can't sleep. All I can think about is my sweet baby that I will not get to meet until the day we are united in Heaven. This is not how I pictured this pregnancy, I thought something was wrong for awhile but I did not know what is was, I was prepared for something, not for this. Why do these things happen, I will never know. I completely understand and believe that God always knows what He is doing but I can't wrap my brain around this one. I went to the dr for my 2nd ultrasound because the baby was in an odd position and they wanted to watch me very close - an ultrasound every week. The baby had a heartbeat the first ultrasound and I fully expected to hear one the second time around but I was wrong. Our sweet baby had no heartbeat and was measuring a week smaller than what was expected. We are really in a state of disbelief and shock. I know it will get easier but for the here and now it is not. I just keep holding on to God's plan and know something great will come out of something terrible. Please keep us in your prayers.

Pictures

Easter was GREAT this year (as it is every year). The kids had a blast with the Easter egg hunt and spending time will all of their cousins. We had a day of fun with family, it was really a great way to celebrate and remember God's ultimate gift for us, his Son!

I know these are my kids so I realize that I am partial but really, they are wonderful in every way! We love them so much and feel so blessed everyday. God gave us these 2 perfect gifts to love and raise for Him! What an honor, seriously! Don't get me wrong, we have our challenges but it so rewarding when I take a step back and acknowledge that God is at work through me for my kids and God is at work through my kids for me! What a blessing it is!

I am very excited about spring break this week. We are going to be busy playing outside, going to the zoo, going to Ohio, and just being together! I am so ready, spring break here we come!

Jacob's 5th haircut!

I just love this boy! His hair is great and he is so handsome. This is the before picture. Remember this is the 5th haircut and he will be a year old in just a few weeks.

During. He did great, I guess he is used to this by now. He is so laid back that he does not get upset about much, except maybe being told 'no no'.

After. How handsome! I do wish we did not cut off so much because I do love the wild hair, it is kind of his trademark but either way he is just adorable and as sweet as ever!

This is the life...

...I have always wanted! It is a wonderful feeling to wake up and realize I am living my dream with the best husband and children that God could have ever provided.

I sure do love this boy and those sweet chubby cheeks!

I love this girl too! She is so funny. She comes up with the craziest stories. I am bummed that she is on an antibiotic but thankful that she is 3 1/2 and this is her first antibiotic ever! Amazing!

The happiest boy EVER! This is his face pretty much all the time. It is wonderful to have such a smiley boy.

You just never know what she is going to come down the stairs in. I woke her up the other morning and she was wearing a dress-up dress, tiara and dress-up shoes. She really did go to bed in pajamas so at some point in the night she changed. I wish I would have taken a picture!

Yummy spaghetti!

Oh the Christmas Card...

So many choices! Addie is in a stage where she does not like to have her picture taken, which drives me crazy! I think after a bunch of pictures we were finally able to get one that would work for our Christmas cards. I love the Christmas season and I love to hear Addie explain what it is all about. We are so blessed!

Fall Fun!

Happy boy! I can't believe that he is already 8 1/2 months old. He is sitting up and moving around but not crawling yet. I remember with Addie, I could not wait for her to start crawling she was so calm and quiet. This little man is going to be all over the place! I am enjoying this non-mobile stage right now! I don't think it is going to last much longer! :)

All of my nieces and nephews! This was a hard picture to get but they are so great.

The babies (Isaac, Emma, Jacob) So sweet!

Just too cute!

Loves the bitter biscuit! What a mess.

She hunted for a very long time to find the perfect pumpkin! Notice how far out she is, the very back of the pumpkin patch, it was a lot of work to find the perfect little pumpkin!

He is so happy! I love that sweet face.

My sweet boy is so much fun!

I love that they are starting to play together. It is so fun to watch them interact, play and laugh!

My little princess, Cinderella!

Spot the dalmatian. This is about as happy as he was in this outfit. I don't think he appreciated it much! We thought is was pretty funny though.

All the babies again, their first HalloweenGood times! We love every minute of it, so blessed! Sorry for all the pictures I just could not decide which ones to post! :-) God is so good to our family. He provides for us and takes care of us everyday. I am so thankful for the blessings in my life, especially ALL of my family and friends! I love you all!

Lately...

Addie tried a smore for the first time, I guess she did not like it! :)

Loving every minute in the swing. He is so happy! He is just so much fun, I think we are going to have our hands full with this little guy. I can't believe that he is already 7 months old! He looks like a little man.

Sweet baby feet!

Addie loves to swing too! I think we go to playground just to swing but I guess if that is what she likes that is what we'll do. She is growing up and saying all kinds of funny things. It is amazing to watch them grow and learn.

Addie's first day of school! She was GREAT! Not even a tear. She loves school, I just wish she would talk to me about it. She says "I don't want to talk about it right now", everyday after school. What is that all about?

She does not look to sure about it but once we got in the room she was good.

This time of year is always crazy. Know that I am back to work, Addie is in school and Jacob is here we have had to do a lot of adjusting! Jacob is finally sleeping better (only waking up once) so that makes me feel better and not so tired. Addie is back in OT which was a bummer but it is going well and hopefully she won't have to stay in it too long. Jason is still working like crazy and doing free lance on the side, which helps! I have been slacking on the blog lately but I hope to get back into it soon and update it more frequently. Overall, we are doing well and loving every minute of our two kiddos! They are such blessings!